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Second Split
02/23/2026
CW: implied sexual assault, trauma
It's all I want to remember right now sorry
First Split
02/22/2026
CW: bullying, trauma
I was easily frightened as a child, and I was particularly scared of the dark. I don't remember how old I was, but these two girls were pretending to be friends with me so they could tourment me, and one of the things they did was to make me play Bloody Mary with them at a sleepover and then trapped me in the bathroom "with her".
Obviously, the door couldn't have been locked from the outside; they were probably just holding it closed. But the phrase kept repeating over and over in my head.
I couldn't use the bathroom with the door closed for months afterwards and I still can't use it in the dark. I avoid looking in mirrors in dark rooms too but tbf I think they're kinda spooky to most people.
It's possible that this isn't the exact point of the split, but it's the first time I can remember feeling like I had multiple thoughts in my head, some of which were nonsensical.
Not-so-fun-fact, some years after this I got locked in a dark bathroom again (by accident) because the place I was at was closing up for the night and an employee didn't realize I was in there. At the time I couldn't explain why I had such a strong reaction to it, but in hindsight the connection is pretty obvious...
Show Transcript
MATT: Please let me out this isn't funny please I'm scared
Voices: (hahaha) (hehehe)
MATT: [internally] The door is locked.
MATT: The door is locked & they're not letting me out.
MATT: They are laughing at me.
MATT: The door is locked the door is locked the door is locked the door is locked
BLUE: Oh! I get it! This is just a bad dream.
RED: I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS
BLUE: All of this has been another bad dream... I'm going to wake up soon and it will all go back to how it was before...
RED: I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU & I WILL NEVER TRUST ANYBODY EVER AGAIN